Summer Holidays

You feel sad because it’s the start of the summer holidays, you feel sad because you have to arrange childcare, you feel sad because your child gets bored, you get sad because your child wants to do things and you get sad because of the stress and cost of it all.
I feel sad because my child isn’t here to do all of those things. I feel sad because this is the 3rd summer that my child has missed. I feel sad because I wish I could have just one more summer holiday with my child.
I know the holidays can be stressful, routines are disturbed, emotions run high and tempers can get frayed. I know it can be difficult arranging childcare and amusing the children for 6 weeks but that’s what we all signed up for when we had our children. I know that no child or parent is perfect but if your child wasn’t here for the next summer holiday, you would be wishing that you could go back and relive this summer holiday with them all over again.
Jack and I are proof that tomorrow is never guaranteed. Like thousands of other bereaved parents, I will be spending this summer thinking about all the previous summers I had with Jack, I will be thinking about the things that I wish I had and hadn’t done. If I can give any piece of advice, it would be to appreciate and treasure every moment of these summer holidays with your child. During those moments where tempers are getting frayed, take a moment to think about those who have lost their children and that may put things into a bit more perspective.
I can still remember the depths of despair that I felt writing this 💔
After losing Jack, I hated the school holidays, I felt so alone and with no purpose. I will now do all that I can to give Summer J and my stepdaughter the best holidays I can, carry my 💔 memories and thoughts of Jack with me x
Arlene, Jack’s Mummy xxx
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