The bravest thing I ever did was continue my life....
When all I wanted was to die....
Since losing my beautiful boy Jack, there have been many times when I have felt and thought that I couldn’t go on any longer.
There has been many times when the pain of his death has been so unbearable that I’ve just wanted to close my eyes and die.
Several times, people who haven’t lost their child have said to me....
“I’d kill myself if I lost my child”
“I just couldn’t live without my son or daughter”
I used to think to myself, there are right, why am I still here? The truth is... I can’t live a full, happy or the same life without Jack but I know what’s it’s like to lose a child so I would never put my own mum and dad through the trauma of also losing me.
Jack was robbed of his life at the age of 5, he didn’t get the chance to grow up, enjoy his adult life and see the world so how could I just throw away a life when I know that Jack would give anything to have his life back.
I can see why, at times, people feel that suicide is the only option available to them. In those darkest hours, when your head doesn’t stop and the dark thoughts go round and round, sometimes it can feel like it’s the only way to get away from it all.
Suicide awareness is so important and it’s another taboo in society.
At Brightest Star, we offer counselling to any bereaved parent, grandparent or sibling...please know we are here if you need us.
Thinking of everyone who is suffering xx
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