Easter

They say my child's in heaven, Can someone take me please?
You see I am his mother and I need to know that he is safe.
Do you know where your child is? I guess the answers yes..., because it is our job as parents to know just where they are.
Could you cope if it was you who could not see their child?
I'm guessing not, your heart would break in two. ...
They say don't worry he will visit in my dreams!! Could you live your life like this, not knowing if its true. Would it satisfy your love or heal you aching heart? I think its just my mind playing tricks when day has gone.
I never understood before how parents could survive, the death of a child seems like just a cruel cruel world, yet here I am still standing, not knowing where to go. Now I understand depression and just how low I can go. The world it seems such a bleak and hopeless place I hope I can find my way.
They say there is a reason and one day that I shall know, but neither time nor reason can heal my broken soul.
They say you need to "move on " but could they do this if they were wearing my shoes? I doubt not.
Some days life's just so crippling all I can do is breathe, You see I miss him dearly, my kind and special boy. He had so much to offer the world so why not me instead? So much love still to give I just cant understand. These questions plague me day and night, peace I cannot find. So please just take me as I am some days I know its hard, but I can never be that person you once had. Don't expect me to move on, my heart is broken in two, One half of it died that day I said goodbye to Jack. I will never be the same again I have come to learn, my heart it beats to differently to how it did on days gone by. I am a broken mother and how I wish I could change it but I cannot so please just take me as I am.
So if you have seen heaven please can you take me there? My Jack is there so they say, Please can you just take me, show me my child is safe. I need to know just how she is and how much she has grown. I miss you Jack and hope you miss me too, I wish someone had shown me how to live without you. One day I hope to be with you but when I do not know, but hope there is a heaven and your waiting for me still.